We went to a birthday party this Saturday for a friend of my children. I had a very nice time talking with one friend from church. We "compared notes" about some of the behavior issues we have with our sons. She used an analogy that I’ve continued to ponder. She said she felt like she was living in the movie "Groundhog Day". Every day she had to go through the same problems and issues with her son and nothing ever seemed to change.
I know exactly what she meant. We’re having one of those days today. I really hate myself for being so easily frustrated. But what is equally frustrating is when my son panics and freaks out and says "Please don’t be angry, why are you so angry? Why are you talking in that voice?" etc. etc. etc. When I’m not angry to begin with! Unfortunately, I have a hard time keeping my cool with this kind of behavior. My older son is so very intelligent, but he’s severely lacking in common sense and interpersonal skills. He doesn’t accept a simple explanation. He doesn’t accept when I say it’s time to end a discussion. I feel so inadequate in training him because I see how much I fail. He really knows how to get under my skin. I feel so angry and sad at the same time. I don’t like the way I feel.
I don’t really know why I"m posting this. Maybe someone reading will be encouraged to know that other people struggle too. Our home is not full of children delighted in learning, volunteering to do extra chores, happily sharing and enjoying each other. However, there are occasional glimmers. I know that the Lord is not finished with this family. He is at work.
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. (2 Cor. 12:9)
I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. (Phil. 4:13)
Oh my goodness! Thank you soooo much! You hit the nail on the head when you said that you weren't sure why you were writing this post except so that maybe someone else could see that others struggle too!! Well, I am that someone! I have just started blogging myself and wrote my own entry this evening about some of the same struggles. Oh how it uplifted me to read your post and know that I am not alone!! Now if you just had the magical answer for how to fix it–that would be GREAT! LOL!!!!! Thank you again and many blessings to you!
Marla
Isn't it amazing when you look around you (blog world or real) and wonder if I am the only one who feel like things aren't right?! Every stage brings a new struggle, but it also brings new rewards. His grace is sufficient and He also reminds us not to worry about tomorrow.
Thanks for such a great and honest post!
Stephanie@inspired